[ThroughMyEyes]

Someone recently told me, "I wish I could see the world through your eyes" and then asked "what is it like seeing life as you see it?". The question astounded me at the time but I've pondered it since then. We do all "see" differently... some more unique than others I believe.

[Moments]

"and these are the moments,

I thank God that I'm alive,

and these are the moments,

I'll remember all my life"

There are beautiful moments in life. The kind of moments you sit and think, "I could stay this way forever". I had one of those moments today. As I sat there, looking around, I was overwhelmed by the blessing of my family. I've been struggling lately but as I reminisced on the weekend I realized there wasn't one single moment (minus sleeping!) that one of the guys in my family wasn't by my side. To catch up, to hug me, to make me laugh, to just be there. And as I sat and reminisced, I was holding the most important little man in my life - Isaac.

We were out for a birthday party for his dad (my cuz) and it was lonnnnng past his naptime - and he was in full meltdown. Nothing was making him content, he was just fussy and exhausted so I scooped him up to see if I could get him to fall asleep - basically a miracle. See, we were in fact at a sports complex, down on the go-kart track! LOL. I'd already been out on the track twice with everyone but was sitting this round out. So I scooped up Isaac and walked away from the crowd. I cuddled him up, and stood in the sun where I hoped he would struggle to keep his eyes open (haha) and as we stood there he laid his sweet little head on my chest and sure enough - was out like a little light. I sat and stared into his precious face, amazed he'd gone out so quickly. Over the next hour i walked and cuddled this precious baby boy in my arms as my cousins, uncle and aunt roamed around playing games and having a blast just hanging out. The air was filled with laughter, eyes lit up with adventures, and my arms filled with the most beautiful blessing - a sleeping child.

And as I looked around I realized... I was in a moment. A moment I would always treasure. People came by and smiled as they saw Isaac all zonked out in my arms, and I just soaked in the feeling that was surging through my heart. I soaked in the moment... and took a bunch of pictures!

It was an incredible weekend. I have an incredible family. I serve an incredible God!!

[confused]

Why are the doors I think the Lord is going to open closing, and the ones I have no interest in opening?? Is this a season? Are the desired doors going to open one day? Does God just want me to be willing to walk through the undesired doors but not ask me to (like Abraham w/ Isaac)? Can you tell I have a few questions? I just don't get it! If you'd asked me at the beginning of September I'd say I was incredibly excited for what was next. I'd have said the potential on the horizon was thrilling! But today, my heart hurts. I wish my Uncle Tim was here with every single fiber of my being... I want to talk to him so badly I can't breathe when I think about it. What are these passions in me for? Where should I be?? Anyone, anyone?

[Friends]

iPhone pics to blogger = poor quality. Sorry peeps.

Special memories to be shared anyway!

Out to dinner with friends for Charlie's birthday.

Need to get the group shot from Katie still!

^trouble^

aka Jarrod and Katie ;0)

^serious about their desserts^

Carolyn and Anthony =)

^the desserts^

^the brudder^

[group shot to come!!]

[Superbowl 09]

New Years Day

Another fun day out with friends from Starters! This time Carolyn and Kristin are to thank! First it was the PJ Stumble for brunch then on to Kristin's parents house for waffle day - yes, can someone say carb overload! ;) But super fun and more great pics :)

PJ Stumble!!

In front of one of Kristin's parents manyyyy Christmas trees. Such a fun house and yummy waffle day!! :)