Today we threw a super bowl party. It got a lot bigger than expected (eek) but was fun - for the most part.
Amanda came home early from overseas. She's been here for a week but only I knew and had seen her ;) We decided to surprise everyone at the party. She knocked on the door and Jrod was quite confused...and we got M too :)
Surprise! :)
Girlies...
It was Anthony's birthday too!
Superbowl friends!
It was a great day, minus someone showing up - uninvited - who has deeply hurt me, and lied about me every chance she got. I was shocked beyond words when they showed up. It's not that I can't make something work, and have before, but this was my party and a safe place for me and it was beyond rude to bring someone known to be an unkind person. Althou she lies about everything she's done too, and is quite good at "putting on a good act". It puts me in such a hard position when someone seems so nice, but behind everyone's back has been so hurtful to me.
I have only told a few close friends what happened b/c know matter what someone does to me, I won't run around gossiping - even if it's true. So it was so hard to watch my friends chatting it up with them, while all the things said & done flashed through my mind and I was speechless. It just felt so awkward to me, I wanted to run through the room screaming. So many awful pictures flashing through my head. I just had to ask God why He allowed it... but I really think it's opening my eyes to something going on. I've feared it, although it's been denied time and again, but not even doing something in the name of "reaching out" defended this decision today. It's been such a long few months and it wasn't the time or place to do this to me. Besides, and apology would fix so much - but then again - there'd have to be admittance to what's happened the last year and I'm not holding my breath for that. I think it's time for me to make some changes...more changes. Wow.
Well, that made it all seem terrible and it wasn't... up until halftime it was wonderful (lol) and my girlfriends took me upstairs to pray when that person showed up which so helped me focus back on God.
